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| I don't like you. I probably never will. As much as we belittle each other, it's more than your status that outranks another.
You are just pure comedy to me.
You think that you've weeded out all of the weak ones. But just because you're an RDC, doesn't mean that everything that you say, and do is infallible. Are you sure that you've done your job? Once you really start questioning the notion, you better think about what you've really done, before your conscience starts driving you crazy. I've seen plenty that shouldn't have made it through.
It's a team effort, so they say. So what happens when one person is left behind? Was it justified or not? Were they entitled to this being?
In the end, if the results that you wanted aren't achieved, who is there to blame, instructor? | | |
| Kinda of. I'm not too happy at the moment, but things will get better. I've certainly experienced a lot more than I expected to have at this age. But all in all, I'm pretty satisfied. My faith in the Lord keeps me going.
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| I've gone through a lot this year, already. Seeing as I'm not in high school anymore...
As much as it scares me that there's going to be a new surprise every time, it kinda builds a lot of character.
Today, I truly learned not to hate anyone if I didn't really get to know them. This story didn't exactly begin with a good friend of mine, instead, it began with my aunt.
My dad has two siblings, which i didn't even know about until late 2008. My sophomore year of high school, i was told that they would be coming to America in December. I was excited to meet some new people who were family. My uncle, aunt, and cousin came first. Then came my aunt's family, who consisted of her, my uncle, and my tow cousins. Easily, I was annoyed by them. I didn't pay too much attention to that side of the family... until today.
When I had gotten back, my mom prompted my about going to visit my aunt in the hospital. I figured that she must've hurt her back or something. I was then told by my dad that I had to go see her because she was dying and that if I had greeted her, she wouldn't be able to answer me.
I drove to the hospital and visited her that day. After I had gotten off the elevator, I had read a sign that said: Intensive Care Unit. I walked by a few patients who seemed like they were sleeping. Then I reached my aunt's room. She had lost a lot of weight. Her hair was falling out. She was crying in pain. My dad asked me if to ask the nurses if they could do anything about the pain. I went up to the desk and asked. The nurse explained that her liver was failing and that if they gave her pain medication, it would damage it even further. My dad held her hand. It was something that I had never seen before. She was suffering from cancer. Now I understood why my dad went to go visit them so often. I was never told about this, I didn't know that she existed until my dad told me that they were moving here.
And I laid in bed, it was 2 in the morning, I heard my dad's phone ring and he went to the garage promptly and drove out. I figured that he just wanted to see her again.
After I went for a walk, I got home and saw my mother. She was out with my dad all day, and I thought that he had work, but he decided to skip it today. Then she told me that he didn't want to go because my aunt had passed away.
Grievance is unpredictable to say the least. I'm not going to pretend that I care about the situation, when I didn't show it in the first place. I sent my apologies to my cousins, who I rarely speak to.
Last night, I was going through a few things to figure out my next move. It was frustrating, I felt like I was stuck. Like things weren't going the way that I wanted them to. But I spoke to my best friend and she calmed me down.
There's a reason behind why people are the way that they are, you can't change the past, so you have to accept it. If you can't accept it, then leave it alone. Even when life is going back, it's nice to be alive.
You just REALLY have to have faith in the Lord to bring you to your next move. | | |
| '925 IS WALKING BY' I remember AROC singing those exact works a week ago when we hit FEP phase as a Hall of Fame division. And today, they walked by me when they were on the way to the drill hall. I could recognize her voice, our flags, our success. As they got further, I pulled away. I could feel their eyes looking at me. I used to be one of them. We walked the road together. But behind all the success, glory, and fame, comes a different story, the reason why I left.
Great Lakes, Grey Lakes, everyone comes here for a reason. i was about to book it the day that I had to leave. I was upset, worried, but I knew that the grass was greener on the other side. The days that I had here were the best learning days, regardless of how close I was to graduation. The mistake that I made, I learned from it all. I never regret anything in my life, and even if I left, I certainly wont' regret that, either.
So why did I leave? It's probably pondering in their minds. But only a few can understand. Call me pathetic for leaving, but I know what I needed to fix before I could really help out the country. I know what's best for me, as much of a petty reason it sounds to be, it's tougher than you think. It's difficult when you're at war with yourself.
Everyday, I wondered where I would be. What would I do. What should I do to avoid punishment. Study. Keep quiet. Fly under the radar, like David would say. I can't count how many things that I've learned here, and how short it has to end. But it was the best damn experience of my life. I've learned to be more alert. What enlisted people have to do. Dieting. Independence. Motivation. To not run away from things in life. I'm an adult. I should learn to fend for myself, if anything. It's time for me to start building a foundation for myself. But how could I do that, if I were so broken, still? The same problem came to haunt me later, I had lack of motivation because I had no self confidence, so what was I to do? All the degrading things weren't motivating, to me. It was more of a stab in the crack that was already there, rather than a fix. How was I going to get through? When Hell week hit me, I knew. I knew that it was my time to go. So I took the leap. Now I hope to be able to build myself up, again. I'm worried, yes. but that's part of growing up. It's hit me. Here. Now. It's time to take action. To pay up for all the things that I didn't do in the past.
So I hope to do the CG or AF. I hope to start some college. I hope to travel. I hope to find a good job. Everything happens for a reason. Stop being lazy. Stop dreaming. Stop taking such huge leaps. And Just do it. Your second, second, chance. You're 19. make life beautiful. if it was meant to be, it will come back. IT WILL.
Be who you want to be. The girl with experience. The person that they go to when they're in trouble. Be you. Stop being so scared. Start being strong. Baby steps. You're an adult now. You have experience. Prepare yourself for a better tomorrow. It all starts with, YOU. | | |
| -Today, when you dropped me off after we hung out, you called out to me as I stepped out of your car. You said, "Take care of yourself, okay?" and I responded with an absent-minded, "Sure." But then your voice changed tone. "I'm serious, Jess. You're important to me. Take care of yourself," you repeated. You have no idea how much I needed that. Your true friendship MMT.
-Today, after traveling around the world for the last two years straight, I found myself back in my hometown, sitting at my parent’s dinner table eating supper, and for the first time in 730 days, I felt completely lost. MMT
-Today, when I told my mother how much I miss him, she looked across the room at a photo of my late father sitting on the coffee table, smiled and said, “We have to accept the fact that some people are going to stay in our hearts, even if they don’t stay in our lives.” MMT
-Today, an odd, very eccentric, but very cheerful man came in for dinner where I work. I chatted with him as he ate, and he kept telling me, "You're so young, you can do anything you want!" It was only until I told him I hoped to get into grad school, when he became dead serious and said, "What does hope have to do with it? Either you do it, or you don't. If you don’t get into one school, you apply to another. It’s a choice. It’s something you must truly want for yourself." Nothing has made me more determined and it MMT.
-Today, after he insulted her in the middle of the classroom, she looked at him, laughed and said, “Honestly, I don't have time to deal with you or hate you, because I'm too busy loving the people who love me.” MMT
-Today, “One week after her accident, I saw her again. She didn't recognize me, and she could barely remember her own name, but as soon as she saw me, she said, “I don’t know why, but I know I should thank you.” MMT
-Today, it’s been two years since my 18-year-old daughter passed away in a car accident. This evening I decided it was finally okay to read through her journal – enough time has passed (and I needed something to remind me of her). I randomly skipped to a page in the middle, and this was the first entry I read: “I’m a lover and a fighter. I get angry too easily sometimes, but I’m working on it. I party, sleep and think more than I should, but I get things done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I’m slowly learning to stand up for myself and enforce my boundaries. I don’t let many people in, but once they’re in, they’re there for good. I’m stronger than I look, and even though I’ve been broken, I will never be completely shattered.” MMT
-Today, as my boyfriend looked at me from across the dinner table on our one year dating anniversary, he said, “Sometimes people aren’t who they seem to be, and sometimes people are so much more than you originally thought.” MMT
-Today, my grandpa’s last words to me were, “Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.” MMT
-Today, my older sister thanked me and said, “All these years later, and I’ve still never told you… When you were 8-years-old, you told me you wanted to be just like me when you grew up. That simple comment by you helped me out in a big way. Because that was the day I decided to stop doing drugs and not lose my virginity at age 16 to a lousy boyfriend.” MMT
-Today, an old woman told me the story of her daughter who died in a car accident at a very young age. She said she just couldn't get over the grief and sorrow and her life came to a standstill as she mourned. But one night she had a dream of her little girl carrying two heavy buckets - way too heavy for her petite figure, struggling with each step. The old woman asked her, "My darling girl, what are you carrying that is so very heavy?" The little girl replied, "Your tears mommy." And the old woman told me that it was only after this dream that her healing began. MMT
-Today, I learned that my brother, a Marine, was killed by an IED while on a routine patrol in Afghanistan five days ago. Today, also I got a letter from him that was postmarked the day of. MMT
-Today, after nearly two years of silence, she texts me, “I’m sorry.” We exchange a few more texts, with her final text reading, “I never meant to break your heart. In the end I only broke mine.” And this evening I found out through a mutual friend that she took her own life about an hour after she sent it. MMT
-Today, as I cried because of my broken heart, my grandma rubbed my back to comfort me and said, “Things change, but the sun always rises the next day. The bad news is that nothing is permanent. And the good news is that nothing is permanent.” MMT
-Today, I am living in a third world country. As I watch the people living in the village around me, I see that most of these families have barely enough to get by. Some don't even have running water or food on their table every night. But when they wave to me on the street, the constant smiles on their faces and the happiness in their eyes despite their daily struggles always MMT.
-Today, my mom called me to tell me we sold our house of 30 years and we had to live with my grandma while I skipped college to work full time and pay off my dad's debt. I broke down crying in the mall parking lot. A stranger came up and comforted me. I was always told crying was weakness and I apologized to her for making a scene. She said, "Dear, crying isn't a weakness. It's having enough strength to prove that you're human." MMT
-Today, I have been feeling a little discouraged about life lately... I decided to go run through the park by my house in Seattle in order to clear my mind. I came upon the set of Olympic rings that I like to do pull ups on, and hanging from one of the rings was a letter taped shut. I opened it, and it read, "This is whatever you need it to be." I smiled, looked around, and didn't see a soul in sight. But for some reason it made me feel alive, and it MMT
-Today, I waited on an elderly couple where I work. She kept forgetting things. Turns out she has Alzeihmer's disease. Her husband was so calm and understanding. He never got annoyed having to tell her everything she had forgotten. I witnessed true love at its best. MMT.
-Today, I found one of those ‘notes tied to a helium balloon.’ I spotted it really high up in a tree, but I was determined to get it. I was so curious what someone had wrote in the note. After a dangerous attempt, I finally got it down. Getting safely back to the ground, I opened the note. It was a letter from a mother to her baby boy whom she had recently lost. One of the saddest reminders that life is short, and to never stop living it on your own terms. R.I.P Stanley. MMT
-Today, me and my ex best friend who I haven’t spoken in almost a year coincidentally witnessed the same horrific car accident while we were walking on opposite sides of an intersection. Both of us stayed until the police and paramedics arrived to give our statements. Afterwards, still in shock from what we had just witnessed, we got a coffee together, reconciled our differences, and ended the evening with a long hug. MMT
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